So. Men still suck.

Just in case anyone forgot.


So I landed a temp job creating maps for a property management company. I got the tip through my friend Diana and we'd hoped to work together in the Tech Center, but they had no room so I get to work from home. Sad face happy face.


So now I've gone to part time at MC and at just the right time. I'd kind of had enough of it. March was difficult for me, and April is only marginally better, and work was starting to suffer for it. It became the outlet for my despair. I didn't want to talk to customers. I didn't want to talk to coworkers. I just wanted to stand off by myself and be left alone. I didn't smile very much, and when I did, it didn't last long. Things are a bit better now. Spring is here. I got a new job that is kind of related to what I like to do.

Anyways. That's pretty much it.

Men suck.

I don't know if I ever mentioned that, so I thought I'd throw it out there.




May have a job opportunity somehow vaguely related to 3D animation much the same way birds are related to archosaurs, which is to say they are distantly related in some fashion that makes them cousins twice removed times six thousand.

11Second Club November Entry Complete.

This is it. I feel like I should have left the lip-sync in stepped keys. It looked better since it was such fast dialogue. I didn't have time to really tweak curves on the lip-sync so it looks a little hinky. Also, I tend to have slightly spastic animation. I need to settle it down a bit, or at least make the spasticity look more controlled.

New WIP.

This is some blocking for the 11 Second Club November entry. I have to haul ass on it though since I need it done by Sunday night.

New Demo Reel.

That's all you get. Now fucking hire me.

Animation

I'm having enormous difficulty just now. Well, the past three months really. I stopped animating about three months ago. I stopped modeling sometime in July, baling on a project for PBS entirely. No reading on the subject. No practice. Nothing.

It's just not there for me right now. There's no creativity. None. No drawing. No new ideas. No sketching anything out, or blocking something new. I can't remember the last time I even opened 3DS Max or Maya. Blender 3D, a program I fell in love with, I abandoned almost quickly as I fell for it. I don't know why. I can't explain it.

And it has me pretty frightened.

These are skills that have to be worked on continuously, every day, every week, every month. You don't get better by just reading and watching tutorials. You have to actually work on shit, and I haven't worked on anything in months. I was already pretty average. Now I'm probably pretty novice again, if even that, and that's not conducive to employment for anyone except those that produce the shittiest animation out there. You know, the kind for law office commercials. Oh shit, now that's going to show up in ads on the periphery here.

I haven't followed any of my favorite blogs - Animation Mentor, Keith Lango, Victor Navone, VFX World. None of it. I've unplugged from everything. And I can't pin down why. What the fuck could be my malfunction? I have to get to the bottom of it, but I don't even know where to start. I just don't have any idea where my mojo went.

Fuck.

Andy Ostroy; WTF

Here is my lengthy comment to Andy Ostroy's post over at HuffPo.

Joe Scarborough Show Yet Again Why He Could Be President One Day

I mean, honestly. Why is it that the Right continues on it's crash & burn strategy of elevating the obviously unqualified? Is it the star power? Does Scarborough even have star power? I don't get it.

Anyway, here's my comment, which had to be shortened of it's penetrating insight and wit to fit HuffPo's gestapo-like requirement of only 250 words.

First, you must have missed the grenade he threw at President Obama. That is, that Obama "failed" to bring the Olympics to Chicago. He went there to cheerlead the idea. He wasn't doing any of the heavy lifting or work to bring the Olympics to Chicago, so I hardly think that he "failed" to do anything. In fact, nobody failed. The committee selected Rio over Madrid and Tokyo, not just Chicago. Did the King of Spain fail to bring the Olympics to Madrid? Did the King of Japan? No, 'cause there's no King of Japan, but if there were, no one would say he failed.

Secondly, Scarborough would need the support of the Republican leadership- you know, Beck, Limbaugh and Steele- and I don't see any of them taking any time to praise Scarborough or his politics. In fact, I can see them working against him with their usual gusto, or in the case of Steele, working against him with his inept support of him.

Thirdly, every tantrum, every incompetent utterance, every misguided comment on a subject he knows nothing about, every eye-roll, every snotty remark, all of it, are preserved for all eternity on video and would play endlessly in any campaign. He only comes off as an amiable Conservative fella that enjoys a meaningful discussion when he happens to write that about himself and there are hours and hours of video that show he's actually not that amiable a Conservative fella that enjoys a meaningful discussion. There's no way Scarborough could tolerate that sort of intense scrutiny of his "record" on issues, at least not for very long. He's far too thin skinned and petulant. He'd last one month, then withdraw because "the discourse" has become so vitriolic.

Fourth, any schmuck can wax eloquent about how bad the discourse has become. It doesn't mean you get to be president, or are qualified, or that you're Party needs you, it just means you get to wax eloquent about how bad the discourse has become. There are a gajillion blogs. Lots of them say meaningful things and are probably written by people that know a whole hell of a lot more than Joe Scarborough, but I couldn't see any of them as president of anything besides their own blog.

No, I don't think he's angling for anything other than some attention, perhaps a segment or two about how awful the some of the comments were in his post, or whatever, in order to illustrate his own point about the discourse being so very very awful. Mika will console him, his panel will agree with him, or two of them will and the third will risk his wrath by saying something out of line. In the end, he'll get the attention he wants.

Anyhoozle, I'm also posting it because HuffPo tends to treat some of it's bloggers with soft, kid gloves, and often times wont post any comments that smack of opposition to their crazy fucking notions. I tried to take apart Star Jones when she posted a thinly veiled ad for her ridiculous blog and didn't get a comment through until I posted something that said how awesome she was and how ready I was to learn something from her. So now I'm on record for liking her attention whoreishness.